I have a diesease called fibromyalgia....I also have a degenerative type of arthritis which has already affected my back and knees.....I just wish for one day without pain or having to take the medications that fog my brain up...I was a nurse for over 30 years and have always helped others with their problems...I have such a difficult time to ask others for help, because I have been used so many times. Sometimes I find myself more depressed than usual and just wish things were different...this is not the type of retirement I was expecting...I am alone, just me and my dog...my husband of 23 plus years just couldn't handle things and found someone else''s shoulder to cry on...I try so hard to believe that there are good people in the world and that God has a purpose for me, but sometimes its just so difficult to see .....