I came down with cancer and was given stage four-B,my cancer hospital said it is the second biggest tumor they have seen,it was in my neck and throat,My wife had just lost her mom to cancer the year before and we was in for a battle emotionally,all I knew was she could not lose me now,it would be to much for her,I know she prayed with all her heart and my sister's and mother who know god our father as the father that he is and how they prayed for me as well but not to be just be healed cause I was to far into cancer to be healed,but prayer.s was for god's will and for me to come to know him as my father before I go..I was in for a fight with cancer that was beyond anything I could imagine,35 radiation treatments,overnite chemo and feeding tube for nourishment,Doctor's told me they will shrink the tumor and then go in and remove what they can,made it through the treatments and went in for the app.for what it will be like to go in and remove the remaining tumor and doctor said with glee and amazement that it's all gone.I reflect back now and remember when about half way through my treatments when my doctor ask me ,what are you doing are you doing anything we do not know about ?? Made me concerned and I asked no why ? He said are you sure ? I was sure and he said you are doing better than any of our patience,and how they are hitting me with high dose of radiation and chemo,Me being so sick feeling and such it didn't register to me how god was answering prayer's for all who was praying for me..I go back and look at what all took place in my life and see where my father (Dad) as I have come to know him has been with me,I cannot say why he has,I don't have a clue,But he has and so I have asked him why and his answer is you have alot to give other's and I need you to do this,I felt his word's and how I cannot deny the way his word's washed through my body,I thought ,okay then,I will tell all who I meet how I am here today,As day's have gone by and I find myself in sin and feel ashamed I ask Dad why me and why can I not be like I need to be with you,And he tell's me ,Son you have been so far out in sin and from your childhood you have never had a father nor anyone to help you as a child needed,You are learning now that you can come to me with anything and I will help you,mistakes will be made and with time you will come closer to me and become the person you so desire,humane nature has dominated your life and spiritual nature takes some time and work on your part,when you fail see it and pick up and put it behind you and try harder,I will never leave you alone nor with to much,Well the cancer was to much for me and he did not leave me with to much but he healed me,I've been in state prison and federal prison for drugs,I do not deserve his grace,For I still fail at what I should be,I have never shared any of my story before and this is only a small piece of how I can say our father is all powerful and loves us all..God bless..