I'm usually the one with the encouragement for others, I hold everyone else in prayer and give myself a pep talk when I need it and hold on to the faith. lately, I'm empty more often than not. I cant feel God, hear him and can barely trust him. I pray, it looks like there's an answer but its all an illusion and everything becomes worse than before.
I have a son with autism and its been a constant struggle through education. Last year I felt a change that God was putting things right and we were moving in the right direction and then towards the end of last year, everything I prayed for and hoped for all around me has fallen apart. I know God is good, I've seen him do miracles so many times and yet somehow I am struggling to believe he can or wants to save me from this pit I'm in. I cant get out by myself. Nothing seems to help. im crying out to God to no avail and im failing by myself.