I am afflicted with multiple mental disorders, and have tried to take my life once they were first were introduced into my life. at times I feel lost and confused and sometimes burdening on my family friends and loved ones, I came to realize the error of my ways and put all my faith in God for he is my lighthouse. I have made myself reclusive and rarely get out as much I used to because I feel as if nobody understands my illness, I have been to multiple psychiatrists and feel as if the medication makes me feeble and useless when I am on it, I miss the outgoing spirit which I once had and remember the times before I was afflicted with such an illness. I want to find a church that is right for me in my area, sometimes I get really nervous around crowds of people, I have been attending church online so I can feel the presence of the Lord in my house for him to look out for my friends and family. I feel like I need guidance a role model or mentor to guide and give me strength, I just ask for your prayers to have the right people in my life through this trivial times so I can get out and help people who would do the same for me.