I understand self doubt and fear of failure and rejection. If you know what he wants from you, buckle down and focus on achieving those goals. If you don't know what to do or what he wants, you have to pray and ask for it to be presented to you. Then focus on cutting off the bad habits until you find understanding in The Way. Stop allowing negative thoughts run your world. You get to be anything and everything when you have faith and make efforts toward your goals. stop telling yourself that you can't do it (whatever it is) because you fu**ing can. stop telling yourself you are ugly, because YHWH made you beautiful inside and out. He made you perfect in his eyes, and you are fully capable of overcoming these obstacles that are weighing on you. To treat yourself like anything less is not only disrespectful to you, but to the most high, he who knew you before you were in the womb. Push through sweet heart and let him be your strength because he is right there waiting for you to take your life back, take your power back, and be fearless in righteous endeavors because he protects those who love him with all of their heart and put his ways first.