I pray for you and I have the same issues, what helps me is realizing that, if you really think about it, the only person I should care what they think about me is MYSELF 8^) Other people can think whatever they want about you, but it doesn't matter at all as long as YOU think you rock! and I think you do 8^)

feeling alone is a terrible state to be in, I've been there, but there are things you can do to make it better!