Please pray for a breakthrough. I've been taking care of my mother for the last 4 or 5 months ever since she got diagnosed with cancer and I havent been able to support us financially because I had to quit my job to do so. I cant trust that she will take her pills responsibly because shes been abusing pharmaceutical drugs her entire life, i have to disperse them to her. I have my family nagging me to get a job and get her set up with a hospice home instead of inhome hospice, meanwhile my mom is falling everytime she tries to leave her room and needs assistance with just about everything. The state is dragging their feet in determining whether or not she is eligible for institutionalized care, and ive been trying to get paid by the state to take care of her for a little over 3 months now. She started showing serious signs of decline just recently and every week I see it progressing it kills me on the inside. I feel alone and helpless, I have friends and family who care enough to send money but not enough to reconnect with me in anyway, like I appreciate the help but emotionally I feel like I am left dry like im not enough. Sometimes it feels like im burdening people by wanting to reach out to them to say hello. My father doesnt want anything to do with me even though he says he misses me, he sounds indifferent when I reach out to him, as if to say "what do you want now?" Like he thinks all I ever call him for is some kind of handout and hes annoyed with me. That makes me afraid to ask people for help and ive put in so many applications at different places, all while juggling trying to take care of my mom, it feels hopeless. Please pray for a financial windfall and possibly a new real friend in my life.