(Sorry So Long Gods message touched my heart).....This shows me the lord is here with me and has my back , their are signs everywhere. I was just talking to my husband telling him how i was thinking about School and the fear I have in taking a step forward with my education, I got my student report in the mail from FAFSA, and im able to get funded a good amount for school again , I don't know what to do cry and run or jump up for joy, see the problem with me is fear in success and getting there. I had a hard life and never was given a chance to be a kid. I lost my mother when I was 16 and had no one to teach me , then getting hopped around from home to home lost and in group homes didn't help , then turning 18 and on my own given a chance to get the state to fund my college, not knowing of how serious that was for me in the future, and messed that up , with my choices in the past its even affecting my kids now and they were not even in this world at the time. My family in Denver supported me to go to college and become someone , but i was young and ignorant, and I failed because I didn't understand the work and so all I wanted to do was party so I can forget . Would not make good choices, I gave up alot because if I felt it was to hard I would not put myself through the grief of failing , I have failed alot because of my choices and my fear of succeeding . Ill stay back, Well that's where im at , the difference is I'm not doing wrong and parting and ignorant like i was, I go to church and trying to bring my family up in living like a christian family , and im well aware of where life goes with bad choices, but I am am scared of putting my self through failing because of my past experiences with school. I don't want to start something and not finish, I don't want to freeze up and fail or not understand and give up . I defiantly don't want to disappoint my children . I need prayers family and friends !! I have alot to decide. All I know is I want to make the right choice not just talk I want to walk with my head high . God you know what you want from me help me and lead me, good night God Bless you all!!
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