I need to draw strength and courage to stay in the spirit of God - to carry out the plan HE has for me. To seek God first and always and be obedient to His Word. Also, to be kind and caring to myself. The heart is soft and the flesh is weak battling my spirit in this painful warfare. May I always seek God first not myself. I don't know what the heck I'm doing, I just know that I am hurting.