TODAY I AM MAKING MY MIND UP TO GET UP AND DUST MYSELF OFF AND GET BACK ON TRACK. I HAD LOST SIGHT OF WHAT WAS IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE AND THAT WAS NOT GOOD. I HAVE BEEN HAVING MY OWN PRIVATE PITY PARTY AND I AM TIRED OF IT. I THOUGHT THAT MY HAPPINESS DEPENDED UPON A MAN. AND I AM NOW BEGINNING TO REALIZE THAT LIFE GOES ON WITH HIM OR WITHOUT HIM. I MADE SOME FOOLISH DECISIONS AND I ENDED UP SAYING HURTFUL THINGS TO HIM THAT I DIDN'T MEAN AND NOW THERE IS NO US ANYMORE. PLEASE PRAY THAT HE WILL EVENTUALLY FORGIVE ME AND LEARN TO TRUST ME AGAIN AND THAT WE CAN WORK THROUGH THIS, AND IF NOT I PRAY THAT GOD HELPS ME TO DEAL WITH IT.