Dear heavenly father, I just please need your guidance and strength today, I need to understand and feel the affectionate love that I've hardly experienced much of my love, please help me get in touch with those type of people who are loving and compassionate and will accept you for who you are and that I no longer will have to suffer from neglecting or any type of abuse ever again for as long as I shall live!!! Please help me out of the darkness, to be a more outgoing and fun compassionate person to be around, I want to make people laugh and understand what an inside joke is, and be able to converse in group conversations without my jealousy overcoming me and feeling insecure?!?! Please help me get through these rough times! I need to know am I still lost?!?! :(