I'm not a selfish person and I try to be optimistic but there is so many things being thrown at me all at once and I'm feeling overwelmed. I lived with an alcoholic for 9 and 1/2 yrs and 3 kids later. I've finally given him an ultimatum, the booze or us, so he left. I live on a farm and I feel so alone. Our baby is under 1 yr. I want a healthy happy family.