I pray that I find the energy to keep going. I dedicate my every minute to my son's and deal daily with my youngest son having autism. I have no support from there father. He just resently asked to come back around after a year and a half. I pray I can stop expecting things from him and getting disapointed. I keep wanting him to have the same focus I do for my childrens needs. Yet I just don't see that happening. This leads to disapointment and sorrow. I feel myself slowly falling back into sadness. And I pray with all my heart that this situation won't break me.