Usually I try to be strong and keep going on, always fighting for that "something" that makes this life special, but a few days till now, I realized that I'm not important for that "something" special I realized was only my personal dream my ray of hope... I know there are out too many thing to fight for. But today, for the moment, just hurts... really hurts, I pray now not for recover that "something", I pray for in the future believe again, and not stop dreaming tomorrow, hoping this pain don't corrode the rest of my soul, cause right now really hurts... really really !!
A very dear friend of mine always told me "besok akan lebih baik lagi" (tomorrow will be better) I want to be able to smile tomorrow again .... I pray now to be enough strong and find something new to keep fighting .... and not loose everything now in this despair....