I feel so alone. I believe in God, and right now, he is my only refuge, but I need a bit of a human voice or just someone to listen. I am a point in my life where I just feel like all I have done is not to the liking of anyone. Everything I do is just wrong in someone's eyes. I don't fit in, I push people away because they cannot understand me, my own husband mentally abuses me. I don't know. It's like I personally just don't fit into this world, like the kind of person I am, is just not meant to be living amongst you. That is how I am made to feel. I feel like I have failed the world. Like I cannot be me without someone to pass a judgement. I am sure one of you will as well. I am to the point that I am losing the battle. I am slipping away into a darkness and I know this time, I will not overcome it. I don't want your sympathy, I want a friend. A non judgemental friend...but it ain't happening. Once people know me, they leave. They always do. I cannot help the way God had made me. I can only be what he made me. Sighs, so my prayer is that people leave me alone and stop judging me, I pray for strength, I pray for a true friend.