(the quick version)
I found out I was bipolar in 1997, and since then have prayed for freedom of the symptoms, to regain my life. Since then, it's been horrible (to say the least) but I continued to pray. Recently, while ordering a book for my husband about loving someone with bipolar disorder, I scanned the page and noticed a book, nonfiction, about a woman who found a way to be free from her symptoms for over ten years and is continuing to do so. Being that no matter the medication, (I'm either allergic to it or it simply doesn't work for me), I am quickly running out of options. I have asked my doctor to look into this treatment, and am currently awaiting her approval and advice. Later, I found out that the treatment the woman used was created for use in 1997! I am wondering if this is what I had been praying for all along, and if God intended for me to see that book to learn of it. I am scared, and know I would be taking a risk of possibly getting worse by doing the treatment (if it fails), but if this is, indeed, the treatment I've been praying for, would it not be worth the risk? I am asking for prayer on this subject, that I'll KNOW what God wants me to do, and that I will be FREE from the constraints of the symptoms that have plagued my life, and almost destroyed everything I had gained in life. My faith runs deep, my love for Him is pure, and ONLY in HIM will I succeed in all HE wants for me.