The man I love left me. I quit my job. I drink and smoke and am miserable. I wish I had life like it was at 28. I'm hurting too much to go to work cause of drinking and diabetes. I need a miracle. I'm sick of treatments to cope with my misgotten life. I just wish a miracle would happen.please pray I have help. not the kind where I go away from society but the kind that would give me a hand up.