My Friends, my heart and mind are so conflicted. My senses tell me my son is back to using, and my heart is just breaking. Why is his SON not enough for him to stay away from this DEVIL that controls him. I want to just shake him and say what the hell is wrong with you. You have a Beautiful Son who needs you, needs his father to be present in his life. How can you go for weeks not seeing him? Wondering what new thing he is learning. His 1st birthday is coming up and you may not be apart of it. I thank God for giving me a grandson, he is the most precious person in my life, why doesn't it matter as much to you as it does to me. I can not deal with the constant excuses of blame and denial. Please pray for my son that God will Enlighten his Heart and Soul with his presence and remove these defects from his person.There is so much anger and resentment that it consumes him. Thank you and God Bless