With everything going on in the world, it seems trivial but, I'm drowning in my own loneliness and it scares me. I'm an only child from a broken home. I was a daddy's girl, but my father has been an alcoholic for most of my life and we are estranged. I was unable to have children, am middle-aged and have been single for a very long time. I finally entered into a relationship a year ago, only to now find it may not be as serious and committed as I thought it would be. I have friends, try to meet new people and stay active, I sign up for classes . . . but nothing seems to stick. I feel worthless (not being a mom or an auntie has a lot to do with it), insignificant and unlovable at times. I'm good to my friends and everyone around me, but even some of my 20+ year friendships have dissolved. The one thing I've always wanted more than anything is true love in my life--love of a good man; love of family; a family of my own--yet it seems to always elude me. I pray and meditate and try to be the best person I know to be, yet it feels like my destiny in life is to be alone.