I always was different in every since of the word, been abused endlessly and abandoned by the best of them. I forgiven all who hurt me and I do not hold on to those things but struggle the aftermath of outward behaviors and thoughts most often times projected into negativity. Been angry as a child till now but I love people enough to give my life for them. All I could think about is how I could create housing for them so I could get them to say there is a God. I can not get my mind off it. What could I do to make myself happy for once? Please pray that God takes me out on dates.