Prayer Request
I am truly grateful for everyone who prays for me. Without a doubt, that is why I'm still alive today. I hate that I have to keep asking this, but please pray for me. This mental anguish I feel is overwhelming. I've been on meds for depression for 20 years now and none of them really worked. Now, I have an addiction on top of that. I'm ashamed of what I do and I hate that I feel I have to use to function but I do. It's getting to the point that even this isn't enough. This crushing sorrow is about to consume me. I sat with my emotions and I felt the sadness and cried for a day (I wasted a day), it didn't seem to make a difference. I want to go get help but that means that I would gain weight which I'm deathly afraid of because no one will love me and then everyone will laugh at me and I'll be humiliated. Also, due to depression being a side effect of coming off the drug, along with my preexisting depression, I could go into psychosis and hurt someone or hurt myself. My family would disown me. I can't go to the bathroom anywhere but my house and if I had to go away somewhere, I wouldn't be able to use the bathroom and I don't even know how bad it would get. No one would ever hire me ever again. It would be expensive and if I can't work after because no one will hire me I don't know what I will do. All of the scenerios lead to life being more unbearable and then if it gets any worse that it already is, I know for sure I will take my life and then I'll end up in hell. This pain never ends and just grows. I don't know why it's here or why I can't get rid of it. I've tried praying, reading the bible, journaling, exercising, and reaching out to prayer sites. I'm running out of patience, energy, and hope. God says we won't be given more than we can handle but this is more than I can handle. It has been for a very long time now. God also says He's not a man that He should lie....So I'm lost. Please pray for me that God would take this. It's killing me and I'd rather not tell my family because they will just judge me because that is what they do to people even those in their own family. I don't want to be here anymore and I'm trying to stay but I don't know how much longer I can take it.
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I also suffer from depression. The one thing that works for me personally is keeping my mind and body occupied, depression causes pain. The same God who created the heavens, Earth, the stars, mountains also created you. You are here for a reason. Accept the fact that God will provide. You will be loved no matter your weight or appearance by those who are capable of love. I pray God eases your mind and takes your pain. Honestly, we are our own worst enemy. Stop being so hard on yourself. You're human. We all make mistakes that can't be undone but you can ask for forgiveness and move on to a better you. God bless you. You are a child of God and yes the world is a depressing place, but look at the creation God has made for us. The trees, the animals. The world is also beautiful. Music helps also. Helping others is possibly what your calling is. I wish the best for you. We are all family in God's eyes.
Please stop judging yourself - would you laugh at your best friend and stop loving them and humiliate them is they gained weight? No you would support them because YOU are a good person. You can lose the weight once you lose the addiction but you need help to kick the addiction. Please do not give up hope dear Flossy. I pray that God gives you the love and strength you need to change your life. It is possible. I used to feel as you do. I’m happy now -HAPPY and you will be too. Praying for you - God is with you - I pray you feel his love all around you. 💕
Flossy you need to get help - Professional help to get through this terrible suffering. Please go to your doctor. Praying so hard that you find the inner strength to carry on. 💕
Praying for God strength and comfort right now in Jesus mighty name.. surrender everyrhing to God is the solution of all your problems🙏❤️