I struggle. It hurts to even look at the women at the beach by heart aches with fear and intimidation. I think God gave me word about the type of wife I will have but I have doubts now. It's been a long time. I don't wanna wait. There are a few open doors but I want better, I fear that is my designated woman and I reject her. Thoughts pass through my mind about running away from His will to find her. I get angry at God and idk eve. know what the future holds, I am angry at my self for not realizing my potential and wasting my youth. Four years until I am forty. It literally hurts to think about or go anywhere. Idk how to handle the sadness and fear and loneliness ND the thought that Iay never have someone I truly desire.
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What He conceals and reveals is His plan. God also designed good works for each of us according to our gifts, strengths, and opportunities (Ephesians 2:10). Faith is the most important thing to have with God. In order to understand God's plan despite you can't see it, you must TRUST in Him and in HIS best way for you. Have faith in God and build a relationship before He reveals it to you. Example to the story of Abraham, God revealed a plan for him that we will be the father of many nations, but God concealed that he would struggle with faith, then 25 years later he would have his 1st son with his wife. So God will conceal (waiting/keeping the faith and trust in Him) then reveals which is God's love.