Lord, I feel my blessings are more than I deserve. Take from me and give unto those more in need. Provide a guiding light for those lost in darkness. Give warmth to the unsheltered. If I am worthy, guide me - use me, I am yours. Give me and only me all the pain in the world, if only for a moment. So everyone will have a moment of peace and smile. I am a pillar built by your hand. I can take it. Let me show the fallen one that with kindness and love, his quest for evil will fail.

Everything I lost was my fault. My ego... my arrogance... my adultery, my addictions - Thank you for taking it all away and stripping me bare. Everything I committed in darkness and blatantly against your will, I hope I am forgiven. If some sins cant be forgiven, so be it. I stand ready to be judged and I will continue to open my love to ANYONE in need regardless of my destination. I will carry your light into damnation if I must.

Guide me, use me - let me endure so others can smile. Amen