well this one is not really for me it is for my mother inlaw in arkansa she has just been told that she has 12 months to live and there is no hope to get rid of the cancer just slow it down she wants nothing more then for to see my children and me befor her time comes and I want nothing more then to go to her see when her son and I seperated it was not good and the last words siad between her and I face to face were not nice and I could not bare it if that was the last time I seen her i love her to death and she is speacel to me regardless of the fact things didn't work out between her son and I I just need my finaces to strighten out some so I can go with ease I am going regardless it would just be easyer if so much strees was not coming with it I have been praying and will conteniue to but more prayers will help I no god is watching and nos my words are true of the hart and he will keep his hands over us amen.