i am not a person that opens up and let people into my life. many hurtfull things has happened to me in the past and wish you guys pray for me to find internal peace. to be able to forgive and love again. allow others to be part of my life. to be a loving and caring wife to be husband. to be able to talk about that hurts me to the ones close to me without getting angry. God please i need closure from my beloved mommy that past away. Its like i can not get over it. Grieve is taking over my life. I need to make friends people who i can care about and have friends who cares about me. I miss just miss my mom so much i guess she was the only person i could talk too. Thank you for your prayers.