I don't know what to do. I think i'm going to have a nervous breakdown. My boyfriend of 22 yrs is in the hospital. He called me at work a little bit ago in soooo much pain and afraid to go to sleep. I'm so scared. I've been so mad at him for years cause he is an alcoholic. I really don't want anything to happen to him, I do care about him. Soooo much has happened this year already. Financially I'm am suffering bad. I'm so lost. I need you God please. I feel sooo alone.