This evening I will be starting to go to a Steps to Freedom in Christ Bible study. It is not being held at my church and I am worried that by going the more freedom I gain the more difficult I will find it returning to a church which triggers so many unhelpful and hurtful memories of the past. I just feel lost and confused by the thought that the denomination I have always called 'home' is starting to feel so wrong to me. I hate letting people down and fear that moving to a different church with some younger people (under 50's) will be seen as me letting my church down.