i retired 15 months ago...and its been great not having that weight on me. i worked for 37 years. so now i joined a gym. it was a really big step. i got a trainer showing me the ropes. i took a few trips my first year retired. i don't want to flounder. i don't know what to do. how is my life supposed to go. i'm single and that's hard. i'm 57 and that is sort of bothering me. i never thought about mortality, etc. until my mid-fifties. i was too busy before. I raised a son on my own. he's 33. he's doing very well. i just feel kind of lost. i don't know what God wants me to do. i am joining my church. i feel good when i go there. there doesn't seem to be enough to be happy about. i'm not sure what happiness is or where it comes from. i lost my sister a year ago and think i am still sad about it. i can't shake the sadness yet. i don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. my dad is 86, he'll be 87 on thursday. it's hard knowing he's coming to the end of his life. he's my buddy. anyway, i could use prayers. thanks.

That I stick with my life-affirming choice to quit cigarettes for good. I want to live a clean, fresh, new life without a cloud of smoke alienating me from this beautiful world and people.