Although I know through every trial comes a blessing and a lesson..I am just tired of keeping up with trials. I keep praying and trying to have faith, but depression is beating me up because I just wish I could catch one break--this world is so evil and my gifts of caring, helping and loving only hurt me more. Many tell me my testimonies help them, but gosh I don't need anymore so please do not say he doesn't give us more we can handle because I hate life right now. Tired of being alone, miss my boys---i just keep praying, but I can't take much more.

Starting my new job today, prayed on it and the doors open..storms me and my boys got through, praying no more storms for awhile and watch over my boys.