I miss my children everyday...life on life terms on a daily battle...I try to give grace in every turn point.....I just picked up 90 days sober....so its one day at a time...in the moment just keeping it really simple now .....I just want the good thing s in life the devil is the devil evil.....I hope my holiday will me the best they can be....will be getting new glasses tomorrow and turn the big 40 this year haven't spoke my youngest son.....I just have to keep move forward and realize I have purpose...always....there is always hope.