I suffer from the very same thing I so understand what you're going through. I pray that you are released from the depression and your anxiety is halted. I don't know if you are interested in talking to your doctor about it but my doctor put me on medication and it's helped, not 100% but it's getting better. My biggest advice is to give yourself a break and don't be so hard on yourself, pray and seek help from a physiologist or Psychiatrist. I take meds and it's helped me immensely. I'll keep you in prayer....