This must be very difficult for you. I am sorry you are feeling this way. You are not use less. You are not un worthy. You are human. We have all failed many times. Its human nature no one is perfect. We all fail. We all hit rock bottom. Trust me. But when you are there....it’s also good. Why.? Because we are in rock bottom laying down looking up to the sky. There is no other way but up from there..... it breaks my heart to read how you express yourself. Being broke is ok. Don’t determine your value over earthly items like money and people. You are you and that is you’re than you there is no one alive that is you’re than you. You are special and unique. The world needs you.... cheer up buttercup. Go for a walk. Breathe the fresh air. Look around at the birds and the sky at the trees. Feel blessed for being able to see touch smell type and live,,,dig in your heart and find that passion and do that that makes you smile. Life can be so beautiful. We are only here so long... praying you’re heArt desires come to life and you are filled with joy happiness health love and peace.