I am having a really hard time in college. I have ruined a lot of relationships, my grades and have the worst anxiety all because my relationship with one person. I am very stuck on that fact that everything is going so wrong that I cant see the good and now I see that I am making the same mistakes with other people.

I have lied to a friend/boyfriend repeatedly and he has finally given up. I have realized that what I was doing was immature and wrong. I would like the chance to apologize and gain his trust back in order to hopefully become friends again. I would like to show him that I am trustworthy and how much I appreciate him. Hopefully the new year can be a new start:)

I am in love, but I keep messing up by letting foolishness and jealousy get in the way. Please pray that I get another chance ans stop committing these sins.