that love never ends, that he finds peace and knows the truth, and that I find my spirit inside me.

Forgiveness for the decisions I have made that have harmed my children. Guidance in moving forward, and understanding from the person I had to hurt in order to set myself free. I have no idea what I'm doing or where I am going, or how to climb out of this hole I'm in.....

for peace and forgiveness, reconciliation after my life's love addresses the issues that keep him from being whole, and brave, and away from our family. Lead him home please.

Prayer for the little girl inside me who has run my emotional live for the past 40 years...

Struggling to let go of trying to control things in my live that I can't. Asking for forgiveness for the mistakes I have made that have harmed the ones I love and pushed them away. Trying to make amends for things I did that I didn't know I was doing that put distance between the person I love most in the world. By trying to bring them closer in a controlling way, I managed to run them out of my life and destroy the most pure and loving relationship of my life. Yes, love is a two way street...and it is 50/50...I am so heartbroken over my half, but am afraid to say I am sorry for fear of being rejected again...Praying for courage and the strength to let go of my need to control, or at least attempt to control things and people in order to make myself feel safe. It is a terrible way to live, and I hate it. It has cost me in deeply painful ways.

Praying for continued progress in the direction I am going in..that I am able to close the door, and not go back and reopen it. To let go and let God take my worries.

I need strength to let go of the man I have loved for 25 years, to be able to love him enough to let him go if he feels that is the right thing to do, and to believe that I am valuable in my own right. Give him the courage to look in the mirror I held up and make the changes he knows deep down inside he needs to make in order to be a happy productive functioning adult. I pray that we both find our way to peace of mind.