It all started a few years ago beginning with the death of my mom after years later my sister passed she was shot and killed by the man she was with for 11 years leaving behind five small children a couple of years past then there was the death of my biological father and right behind that there was the death of my father who raised me he wasn't my biological father but he was my father and then I lost my favorite aunt in my favorite uncle so at that time I was feeling a little bit like Job in the Bible has if I lost everything so to numb the pain and to try to forget them I started using prescription drugs I would say I'm going to use I'm going to take one and that's it but it went on and on and on because those pills help me forget but they get out of control it spiraled out of control where I got addicted and I find myself daily crying out to God asking him to help me overcome this addiction because I can't do it by myself and this isn't me and sometimes I hey God but I always ask him to forgive me because I know that he is my rock I know that I am because of him because there are so many things that I've been through and yet I'm still here I should be dead by now my family doesn't know it but I've had suicidal thoughts where I wanted to take my life because I'm tired but because God is who he is he won't allow it so I'm asking whoever is reading this to please please pray for me ask God to deliver me from this and I appreciate you all thanks and I love you all ❤️😘💕💕