Hi Bianca:
First I want you to know that its not about you being inadequate in any way. You are beautiful! It's about what God will do in your husband's life if he allows that. Presently, my prayer for you is that the Lord would turn your ashes into joy! Your tears will not be wasted, but that the Redeemer of our soul will never leave you in pain. I pray that your eyes open to the beauty around you, and the astonishment of that beauty help heal your heart. I will be praying with you throug it all Bianca.