Hi Gwen, keep the faith. Be careful of your self talk (what your saying to yourself). Find a good Christian counselor to help you deal with your past and then leave it there.... in the past. Ask God to help you to forgive your Mom for her mistreatment of you. Get involved at church helping others. Make sure you don't have anything else physically going on with you that's contributing to your depression (ie make sure your body is absorbing b-12, etc..naturalistic Dr). Treat this like a spiritual battle. I'm going to pray for you now, Dear God, help Gwen to start getting better everyday. Let her have positive thoughts and learn to combat the enemy with your word. Help her to forgive the people who have mistreated her. Bring some great Christian friends into her life. In Jesus name we pray.