I have been going down hill for about a year and a half now and it only seems to get worse. I am lost confused and even though I have friends and family I feel so very alone. My rock, my dictionary, my answer to all questions ,my ear, my voice ...
.That was my dad. As life seems to be getting only tougher and harder to figure out , My Dad past away Jan.28th 2011. I am so lost with out him. I talked to him everyday since I moved out of state atleast once twice three times a day for the last 14 years. I cant call him on the phone anymore .It hurts so bad. I know he's ok where he is and he went peaceful. But I miss him. my brother will be dead 25 years this august, They are finaly together. I am happy for that.

I just turned 47 the day after we buried my father. I need a lot of mental prayers right now because I think I have lost my mind.I dont know how much more bad news in life I can take. I dont have a purpose in this life time that I have figured out. I only hope I find it out before its to late.