I humbly ask for prayer during a time such as this. My mother went home to be with God on February 12th of this year, 2012. November 7th would have been her 72nd birthday, and this will be the first holiday season without her. My heart, I know, is going to grieve for quite a while, and this experience is making me self-examine myself as her son. I've tried to excel in everything I do, and I always put God first. I feel as though that in failing to accomplish my goals in life, that I've failed in honoring my mother. She never set limits on me, and never made me feel that I wasn't good enough. It's just that I love her so, SO much, that all I do is, first, to honor God, and then to honor her and all that she's sacrificed for me. I feel like I've failed in that task, and I know that it's depression talking. Please pray that God, in His Awesome Power, Infinite wisdom, and Abounding Unconditional Love, will continue to walk with me through this, and bring me out the other side. God bless you!