I never noticed how God was in my life. Once backed into a wall, I give up everything I can do and let God do the rest. After countless times it has happen, I still do not get the message. I am also a hypocrite, telling others what is right and what their wrong in. Some follow and come out better, and some don't follow what i say at all. Those that come out better, think I may be a role model but I never follow through on the advice that i give. Another one of my sins, is that I ask too much from everyone because I am incredibly spoiled.

This has led to my parents struggling themselves over money problems and killing themselves over work. This has also led to my friends being with me less because of me wanting too much from them. Especially this one person who I love above all others.

The only thing I ask of God to give me, is the power to follow through with my promises so that I can help my parents with money problems and make them proud as I being college as a freshman next week. The other thing I ask of God is control over my desires both in material possessions and relationships as it puts a strain on those I love.