Its almost Christmas and the holidays are sure hard alone. It is the first Christmas Ty won't see his dad (K)... The divorce should be final soon... I could not deal with his drinking anymore. We split 17 months ago.. and he moved out of the state last New Years Eve. I did meet a man ove the summer and I realized I can love again that I was not completely a lost cause. I really wish he would come back and spend Chritmas with Ty and I. My so is not dealing very well he is 7 and very sad all the time. His teacher ad school counselor reccommended he see someone to talk to. I am doing my best and trying to be strong. it is so hard. I just want that hug and the feeling of having S hold me on the couch watching a movie exp this time of year. Please pray he chooses to come back and we can be as happy as we were this summer:)