I have prayed, and I have prayed, and I have prayed and I feel like God has abandoned me. I feel that this black cloud of worry and grrief will never be lifted. I am so scared and don't sleep at night. Once again I've been denied by those who think they are so superior. I just shake my head wondering how people can live with themselves. God, please give me some sort of sign so I may breathe a sigh of relief. AMEN