You i think i'm crumbling... starting to hate myself so much.. was hoping for a friend to stay by side for awhile at these times... but then... seems like she wanna drive me away as well.. i must have been such a bother to everyone's life huh? may i have more strength.. You know me Lord much more than anyone does... You know my struggle... Please help me get through this.. i don't wanna end up taking my own life.. because i respect You my creator... please send me the Holy Spirit to guide me and tell me what to do next..