Yesterday as I was walking back to my explorer to change books i was singing some worship songs just to myself and i was really praising and the guy next to me was touched. I made his day better. I was a blessing! But last night and this morning I fell into my secret sin and I'm trying so hard to fight it and run from it. But sometimes i think i let it in or i run to it. I pray that i not only win this battle but the war and overcome this sin and that God shows me his light once more. i love everything he has done for me, the people he has put into my life, i just want to free and see my lord and savior in heaven. I just feel so dirty and unclean and sometimes i wonder if he really loves me because of what i've done.