God I am at my lowest. A part of me has died inside. So much has gone on between me and billy. I ask that you help me to truely forgive, and I ask that you help him to forgive too. We have hurt each other Lord, and I know you know what has happened between us both. Pray that he opens up his heart again, that he doesn't mistake who he wants to be with who he really is. He needs your help Lord, to find himself again. And matters are worse now that another is involved because he doesn't know what he wants. We've been through this before Lord, and we've gotten through it, but this time the temptation is so much more persistant. He is being taken over Lord, and I ask that you help him find himself, save himself. That he comes back Lord, I forgive him, for I know this is not his true intentions or doings, but those of temptation and confusement. I know I am not stupid. I know all people want is for me to give up. All people see is the bad. But I know lord that you brought us together for a reason, and that all this is a test of faith and courage to walk through the dark times to become stronger in the end and see the light once again, this time brighter. Help us, please. I love him so much, and I know he still cares, but he is blinded by many things. Help him Lord to see again. Bring him home.