God I am at my lowest. A part of me has died inside. So much has gone on between me and billy. I ask that you help me to truely forgive, and I ask that you help him to forgive too. We have hurt each other Lord, and I know you know what has happened between us both. Pray that he opens up his heart again, that he doesn't mistake who he wants to be with who he really is. He needs your help Lord, to find himself again. And matters are worse now that another is involved because he doesn't know what he wants. We've been through this before Lord, and we've gotten through it, but this time the temptation is so much more persistant. He is being taken over Lord, and I ask that you help him find himself, save himself. That he comes back Lord, I forgive him, for I know this is not his true intentions or doings, but those of temptation and confusement. I know I am not stupid. I know all people want is for me to give up. All people see is the bad. But I know lord that you brought us together for a reason, and that all this is a test of faith and courage to walk through the dark times to become stronger in the end and see the light once again, this time brighter. Help us, please. I love him so much, and I know he still cares, but he is blinded by many things. Help him Lord to see again. Bring him home.

Pray that me and Billy will not completely be apart, and that we still have a chance to come together again. That the battles we face are not in vein. That we may overcome these hardtimes. That when we are together we will be stronger and imbreakable. I pray that Billy does not turn cold, that he does not shut out love from his life, that he won't be afraid to love, that we both won't give into temptations. That I will have the strength and patience to give him time to think. He's going through a really tough time, balancing his family dramas and worrying about deploying and coming home to nothing, and Lord I ask that you give him strength and a clear mind to think everything through. We've been through worse, and I hope that he can see that. I believe that you, Lord, have given us this love for a reason, and that we are being tested to make us stronger. Please help us to not fail this test and make it through. Please help us to come together stronger than ever.. Please God, Amen.

Continue to pray that me and Billy will be okay again. That we may come together again and not have to worry any more. To forget the past troubles that hold us back and to look only towards the good times that we can have now or the future. That he will not forget all the reasons he had said he loved me and may not go astray. That I may continue to have the strength to be patient because he is not the same person right now. He is going through some things and needs help and I ask you pray for his healing mentally and emotionally. Pray that we may be a strong couple again, and all other temptations will leave us alone. Please God, amen

I ask that you continue to bless us. Bless what we have. We have fallen lord, and we need help. We have not given into temptations of others, but the weakness of ourselves, and I ask that you continue to give me and Billy the strength to pull through. Little things may get in the way and push us apart, and we usually find our way home to each other. But lord, this time there's so much more going on in both our lives, but I won't give up. I pray that you give him the strength to not give up on me either lord, that he may be reminded of all the bigger obstacles we've faced before and be able to push himself through this and come home to me once again lord. I'm getting weak. My faith in tihs is dying, and we need your help to continue on. Please God don't let our love die. I know it's stil there, I feel it.

Pray that me and Billy will be able to get through this. That our love will not be taken over by tempation or selfishness. That we may open up our hearts and minds to better understand each other. That the struggles and triumphs of the past 4 years together were not in vein. That God will continue to bless us through this test. That his pain about leaving for deployment will be eased, and that his fear of being left while fighting for our country will be lifted so that he may once again love without restriction. I love him so much, and I know he still feels the same, but given our emmense obstacles he is scared. So am I, and I pray that we can continue to pull through as we've done so many times before. It is through him that I can see and feel the love of God and his many blessings, and I thank the Lord for everything that we have.