Lord I come to you with so much Ive had such a tough year Im going through so much Ive been hurt deceived abandoned cheated on and I find it so hard to have faith and trust anymore after so many years Im being ask for forgiveness and to trust so many times Ive forgive with the same out come this time it seems to be so sincere please help me with this because it wasnt always this was he is a such a good man 17 yrs and 2 children and 1 trip to Iraq he came home wild as a teenager that was in 2005 he didnt smoke drink or even cuss but after iraq he turned to drugs we have been apart for over a year and its been the hardest thing Ive ever did Ive since started dating these past few months but I fill I cant trustthem either but maybe its because of the way my past was please guild me into the direction