I need a job God. I have suffered enough. Why do you allow so much pain for me to endure? I am broken and bitter and I am sick and tired of fighting. All my fight is gone and all I have left is YOU. Where are you God? Must I keep suffering like this? I give to people. I help people. I encourage people. I work with other addicts. God! Can I get something back? Must I sit and wonder when and where my next dollar is coming from for another 5 years? I just went through a year of insane back problems and just had surgery 8 weeks ago. I need work! I need hope! I need your peace. I am so depressed and broken. Lord, please carry me because I can't stand alone and I can't make ANY progress on my own. God I Yell out to you, PLEASE, show me Your will and fix my brokenness before I go down to the depths of depression again.