Friends, I am 40 years old and have never been married. I am the single mother of two and my life used to be characterized by a theme of rejection and abandonment (since conception, in fact). Following a long, severe, clinical depression I had a true Renaissance of my soul in April of this year. I was not looking for love, rather I was actively "not" dating. However, I met a man named Mason that I have been seeing for a couple of months now. I have always been in toxic, highly-abusive relationships with some awful men. However, Mason is a really good, balanced man. I have enjoyed so many things about him and am celebrating that I have finally overcome my need to be with "bad boys". I celebrate that I now like someone for their good, responsible character and heart.

Things were going well between us and I have done nothing regrettable or unkind to Mason...however, he is growing cold on me for some reason and things are starting to move backward. I think he may be wanting to date others or is potentially dating others. Regardless, I feel he has mistaken my kindness for weakness. I am not weak. I have tried to end it with him but he doesn't seem to want to let go of me. Still, I think he is keeping his foot in the door. He asked for time and space. I'm giving it, but I don't know how much more time and space I could possibly give....we rarely see each other these days as it is. My gut tells me that something is awry, but I have nothing to base that on other than my intuition. PLEASE pray that God will give me intense clarity so that I can either have to strength to wait or walk away forever. I am not the girl I once was. I now love myself and will not settle for being on the standby list nor will I date someone who is dating someone else. I really need something concrete so I can make a firm decision. PLEASE pray if you don't mind. Your prayers are worth more than millions of dollars. In turn, I pray God will bless you magnanimously and that all your needs will be met in Him.

Love,
April