I have PTSD due to many horrrifying memories,2 worst ones being the suicides of my 11 year old son and 2 years later my husband..I also have chronic anxiety and panic disorder and paranoia disorder...I was attacked in my own home several weeks ago, but noone believes me and since then, it seems like even the people that liked me, have turned against me..My thoughts and emotions generate everyday to believing that noone likes me, and that people want me to disappear..I used to love and feel safe in this town, but now everywhere i go it appears to me that people despise me, and want me gone..its affecting my 14 year old son and i's relationship, im embarressed to even go to the grocery store...my home has become my prison...my family has abandoned me...5 sisters, 3 brothers, my mother, and the ones i thought were my friends...i cant figure out what ive done... i feel so alone and hated,and the only thing that keeps me alive is knowing God loves me..I'm asking for prayers to keep my sanity and continue to believe in myself....I go out of my way, take away my own needs to help others, but i feel everyone keeps letting my past define me, therefore i cant dream of my future..its not even just my family..its strangers on the street, jealous of my faith and attempting tp make me believe im crazy, that im not one one of God's chosen, therefore im always second guessing who i am, who i want to be and who i will become..pray for me to stay who i am..to like me for who iam, as i always have, but most of all...keep the devils soldiers out of my life....Thank you and God Bless you!..Amen.